Thursday, December 30, 2010

Christmas 2010

Nate and Uncle Scott

Uncle Scott helping Nater put together a train set that he got on Christmas Eve!

Opening presents on Christmas morning!

Daddy and Nate BOTH got tools for Christmas!

Hanging out at my cousin's for Christmas dinner!

We were blessed with a wonderful Christmas, full of family and a TON of presents! You could sure tell that Nater is the ONLY grandchild on both sides...it looked as if Toys R Us threw up in our family room after all the presents were open!

My brother, Joshua, and my mom all came in on the 23rd. We went to the Christmas Eve service at church and then headed down to Garnett to spend Christmas Eve at my in-laws. As always, my mother-in-law made a fabulous dinner and they were far too generous with gift-giving! I just LOVE my in-laws!!! We had a fabulous time hanging out and made it back to KC just in time to leave cookies out for Santa.

Christmas morning was a blast! I think I was one of the first ones up...I am not sure who was more excited...me or Nater! Christmas morning is fun again now that there is a child around and the magic of Christmas and Santa come alive once again! I really wish that I would have had a camcorder on Nate when I woke him up. He wanted nothing with getting out of bed UNTIL I said, "Santa came last night!" He popped out of bed so fast and wobbled around his room trying to navigate himself around! My brother and I were laughing hysterically and he finally made his way into the family room where he saw all the presents under the tree. We had a great time opening gifts together and we were really happy that we had others there to join in on the fun!

After that we packed up quickly and drove to St. Louis. There had been bad weather in the area just days before Christmas but the weather was perfect for our drive. There was snow on the ground but the roads were clear and we had an enjoyable drive. Bo George rode shotgun as Nate and I watched movies in the backseat. We arrived at my cousin's house in the afternoon, just in time for Christmas dinner. My Grandma had just been released from the nursing home the day before and it was wonderful to have her with the family on Christmas. I made my Grandma a scrapbook of my Grandpa and she enjoyed looking through it over and over through the evening. I was so glad that she liked her gift and I enjoyed watching her walk down memory lane. Oddly enough we got the best present ever from none other than my Grandpa! We were sad to have our first Christmas without Grandpa but Dad and Joanie ended up finding 30 year old brand-new T-Shirts from my Grandpa's business and we all got one! I will have to post a picture of it because it is PRICELESS! Words cannot describe the humor...you gotta see it!

We headed to Dad and Joanie's and spent the night in the big town of Winfield, MO. We had a nice time visiting...AFTER Nate decided to elevate my Dad's blood pressure by taking a marker to his walls!!! Thankfully it was washable and no one was made to sleep outside in the snow.

All in all, we were immensely blessed this Christmas season. More importantly, we are thankful for the true gift that God gave us in sending His Son, Jesus to be our Savior. We may have been given many presents, but the true joy lies in the gift of Christ himself. I hope you all had a memorable Christmas and will remember the true meaning of Christmas year-round.

Sunday, November 21, 2010

As Thanksgiving approaches, I am thankful for...

Our sweet new puppy, Bo George

A second chance at love with the man of my dreams...

The unexpected gift of my son whom I love 'to the moon and back'.

For friends and family who have stood by me through thick and thin.



And, for God, my heavenly Father, who orchestrated it all.

Just a few pictures...

Nate and Mommy

Our puppy, Bo George

Hanging out with Grandma DeeDee

With my mom and best friend at Women of Faith

Friday, November 19, 2010

Christmas pictures 2010




So, here is a sneak peek into a couple of pictures that you might see on our 2010 Christmas card! And, yes, Nate's hair is bright red. But there is no doubt that it fits our little boy's personality to a 'T'! We had our wonderful photographer come to our house one evening to take some pictures for us for Christmas. We are always amazed at how she captures things and we love seeing the pictures that she takes for us. We had actually just gotten our new puppy, Bo, the night before we took pictures and he wasn't too sure of what was going on! I stuck a tie on him too and I think he was having second thoughts of coming to live with us! But, both boys handled the photo shoot very well and we were very pleased. More than anything it just made us realize how blessed we are. Thank you God for family, puppies, and red spray paint. :)

Friday, November 12, 2010

Hope and Healing

Instead of sitting down and casually blogging the everyday happenings with us Dulins, I thought I would write a bit on the serious side today. Eight years ago today was a very bad day for me. It is not a secret that I went through a divorce many years ago and 8 years ago tonight was when it was confirmed that my then husband was in fact having an affair. I do not talk about this to trudge up the past, I talk about it because God has redeemed my future. I revisit the hurt and heartache of the day only to remind myself of the amazing healing and hope that I have found in Christ through this situation. Yes time heals, but GOD is the ultimate healer. We all go through situations in life where it is hard to understand why something is happening. Unfortunately, we may not get all the answers while we are here on this earth but God has a way of taking our situations and making good out of them like he promises in Romans 8:28.

I am far from perfect and God never promised us a perfect life. He never said that when we give our hearts to Him that we would be void of the pain and unfairness of this world. However, he does promise us that He will never leave us or forsake us no matter how bleak the situation looks. We may ache for a loved one who we lost but we can have hope that we will see them again if we have a personal relationship with God. We may feel like a failure because our life is not what we had planned but God can still use and shape us in ways we could never have dreamed of. We may feel hopeless to be without a job, spouse (or insert whatever) but God can and will provide what we need if we trust in Him. We may have made some bad choices and/or hurt someone ourselves but God will forgive us if we sincerely ask Him. I have learned that God knows exactly what we need even when we are so sure of what we want. I look back on things that have happened and I can honestly say that I am soooo very blessed with the life that He has given me. I am grateful for his mercy, love, and grace as well as His presence, peace, and provision.

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

Halloween weekend

Nate and Bo, his fire dog for Halloween!

Check out that cheesy grin

We love our newest family member!

Me and my two boys

The family...oops, Bo wasn't looking!

We had a great Halloween weekend! Friday night Nate spent the evening with Grandma Pink and Papa Andy and Jeremy and I met up with some friends and went through a corn maze! Man, was that FUN!!!! We all had flashlights and we found ourselves hiding and chasing each other! We had a great time until I walked out of the corn maze and could not find my phone! Realizing it was probably in the corn maze we left Jeremy's number at the trailer and hoped that someone would find it. All in all though, we had a fabulous evening with friends and running around in a dark field like crazy college kids!

Saturday morning my mom, brother, and Joshua all came into town and we spent the afternoon at the KC pumpkin patch! Nate's uncles soon realized that they were not in Florida anymore! Gotta love the rural activities when it comes to this time of year! We had a good time despite the fact that the little man was getting tired and threw a little fit near the end. He missed out on jumping on the big pumpkin pillow but hopefully we will make it back next year. We stopped by the house to change and for the guys to catch some game scores and then we headed up to the Rogers homestead which was about an hour away. We went to the Rogers Fall Family Fest complete with abonfire to roast hot dogs and smores, and a hayride! We had such a great time! Bo met a friend, Bozley, and they ran all over the land. Nate hung out with his best friend, Hudson, along with Hudson's cousin, Ethan. They ran all over the land too. It was nice to be in the middle of nowhere so that the boys could run off some energy! And, energy they HAD!!! Sunday evening we went to our friend's house for Halloween and had chili dogs and then we all went trick-or-treating together. It was a beautiful night and we got to share it with some of our wonderful Life Friends. Nate enjoyed being a fireman and he had Bo along with him as his fire dog! I tried to put spots on Bo to make him a dalmation for the night but his shirt kept slipping down. He wasn't too impressed with it anyway!

All in all we were blessed with a great Halloween weekend!

Thursday, October 28, 2010

My little fireman (and fire dog)




Nate had a Fall Party at preschool the other day and he dressed up like a fireman! Before school Nate and Bo posed for a picture and Nate called Bo his 'fire dog'. I think Bo was pretty proud of this! Daddy ended up going to the Fall Party to help out and said that it was pretty chaotic, but a really great time! Lots of food, fun, and games! Since Nate was dressed up like a fireman I stopped by the fire station on the way home to surprise Nate with real firemen! The firemen showed Nate all the trucks and Nate LOVED it. He really loved sitting in the driver's seat and seeing all the lights go off!

Our trip to the Omaha Zoo!




A couple of months ago my brother moved to Omaha for temporary business. We had heard that the Omaha Zoo was awesome, so it was a perfect opportunity to go check it out while Scott was there! My mom, Grandma DeeDee and our best friends, Bill, Rachel, and Hudson, went with us and we all met up with Uncle Scott. The Zoo was amazing! And, just as fabulous as we had heard! There was so much to see and it was a beautiful day out!

Our new addition! Bo George Dulin




Well, this is a little unexpected to be posting, but as you can see...we got a new puppy! Unfortunately, Copper (the older dog that we had adopted after Maverick passed) ended up biting Nate and we had to take him back to the owners. Copper was a gorgeous Golden Retriever, but he was just too old for Nate. Thankfully Nater was not too hurt, in fact, he was ready to play with Copper after about 30 minutes of the incident! Nate needed a dog that he could play with, run around with, and grow up with. So, we sucked it up and got a puppy. (Ok, it really wasn't that hard to twist each other's arm...I found Bo on Craigslist and Jeremy said "YES! Let's go look at him tonight!!!"). The owners who had him were sweet people who just could not take on a puppy right now due to their family circumstances. They had named him George but since he was only 19 weeks and probably not TOO attached to his name, we decided to name him Bo. But, so he was not confused, we have been calling him Bo George (which I think may just stick)! We told them that it will be an open adoption and they will certainly be getting updates and pictures on how Bo George is doing!

Besides several sleepless nights, Bo is doing great. We are really enjoying having him in our family! We can't wait for you all to meet him!

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

I am eating my words...



Well, this is actually still a shock for me to be writing this but...we have added another 4-legged addition to our family! After Maverick passed, I told everyone that I did NOT want another dog. At least not for a long while. But, I have to admit...even with Nate, the house has been awfully quiet with Maverick gone, which has made me miss him even more. I still didn't want another dog yet but my heart changed when I met Copper. Here is the story. (Sorry, you know me...always a long story)!

About a week after Maverick passed I found out from a friend that someone she knew was going through a divorce. She had 2 kids and pretty much had to start making huge changes in her life, including a possible move, and getting a job, since her husband was the sole provider in their family. She was looking at cutting costs and unfortunately, that meant finding a home for their family dog. When Jeremy and I first talked about it I could not even imagine having another dog in the house yet. I was still emotional about Maverick and Jeremy knew that. So, he had a good idea to 'foster' the dog from afar and we offered to pay for the dog's food, treats, and bones every month. I went over to their house last week to drop off the food and treats. Well, the lady was much appreciative about this arrangement but in conversation mentioned that she still wanted to find a home for Copper at some point. They had already come to terms that they had to find another home for Copper and she knew that financially and emotionally the dog would be better somewhere else.

I cannot really explain how I felt when I met Copper. I was happy and sad all at once. I was happy to meet this incredible dog, but sad because I didn't want to disrespect what we just went through with Maverick. I could not stop thinking about Copper after I left, which told me that we had to further discuss the possibility of taking him in. So, Jeremy and I talked again and we agreed to go see the dog together.

Jeremy was in love with him as soon as he saw him and said that it was 'fate' because he was named after his favorite kids movie (The Fox and the Hound) and low and behold Copper sported a KU collar. Jeremy was stoked about that. But, he let me make the decision as to whether or not we would be taking him home. We gave it a day to think over and I actually started getting excited about Copper. Not only would he be a good transition dog (he is 9 years old, so he is not a puppy), it would be our first official dog together as a family. Maverick and Graham were certainly family to Jeremy and Nate but when it comes down to it, they were always MY babies. :) Maverick, Graham, and I spent many years together as a little family, so Copper would be more of an extension of me, Jeremy, and Nate.

We certainly did not seek out getting another dog and had not planned on this happening. But, as always, God knows what He is doing and we are excited to have Copper in our family. I knew at some point we would have to get another dog for Nate's sake for sure, but I was just not ready for a puppy. We might think of a puppy when Nate is older and can help more with the training and responsibility. Copper is certainly NOT a replacement to Maverick or Graham but it is just nice to have a dog around in the house again. Jeremy said he would have taken Copper sight unseen! I am so blessed to have a husband who is a dog-lover as well.

Copper is a little older than what Maverick was...he is 9 but still has a bit of a playful side to him. Nate has already been running around with him, which is fun to see again. Copper is a golden retriever and is very sweet and docile. He is about the same size as Maverick was. We look forward to all of you meeting him!

Friday, October 8, 2010

Memorial Stone for Maverick


I spent quite awhile looking for the perfect memorial stone for Maverick's grave. I went to several sites online for something special, meaningful, and affordable. Well, they were all special due to the personalization of the stones, but affordable...they were not. I was pretty bummed out because even though Maverick meant the world to me, I could not afford to go all out (there were some stones that were almost $700)! After telling Jeremy about my dilemma it hit me to try the craft stores. After all, I love to make things, and there just had to be something I could MAKE for Maverick! And, thanks to Michaels, I did find something. A kit that had everything included and I could design it however I wanted to. And, it was just the right size. PERFECT. I had never worked with cement before so it was definitely trial and error but here was the end project. I finished it just before the month anniversary of his passing and on that day, October 5, Nate and I headed to Garnett to put the stone on Maverick's grave. It was a sad but special day. It is still very sad that Maverick is gone and that he is no longer with me, but it has helped me to create all of these special things for him. And, it is such a blessing to have him and Graham buried at my in-laws, a place that I will be able to visit whenever.

So, to my baby boy Maverick...I hope you like your stone. It is special like you were to me.

Now, I am off to the store to buy another kit for Grahamy. :)

Saturday, October 2, 2010

Nate's First Day of Preschool!




OMG! I cannot believe that we are already talking SCHOOL!!!! Nater started preschool on October 1st. He was such a BIG KID and was very excited to go to school! He is going to preschool at our church and it is called Little Blessings. We are so thrilled about this program and the teachers involved here. Nate's teacher is Ms. Angie and he seemed to bond with her very quickly. When I picked him up and asked him if he had made any new friends he said, "Ms. Angie". I was told that he had a pretty good first day and so we celebrated by getting ice cream and heading to Daddy's office. We are so proud of our super BIG KID!!!!

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

Memorial Picture Frame


I put this memorial frame together for Maverick!
Here is what the poem says:

"Maverick was more than a dog to me,
he was a special friend through and through,
loyal, faithful, and always there,
he was my companion and protector too.

He celebrated with me when I was happy,
and he sensed when I was sad,
he was always there to greet me,
whether my day was great or really bad.

Playing ball was his favorite pastime,
no matter where we were,
at the beach or in the Arizona desert,
or in the deep Midwest snow...brrr!

I called him my 'firstborn' and my 'miracle',
and of course my 'baby boy',
he was so very special to me,
so sweet and such a joy.

I know that life goes on,
but it just doesn't seem right,
to not have him waiting at the door,
or laying beside my bed at night.

I was blessed to have him in my life,
and hate that we are now apart,
I will never forget my sweet Maverick Martin,
he will forever and always be in my heart."


Saturday, September 11, 2010

Sweet Memories of MAVERICK





I wanted to share just a few of the amazing pictures that our photographer and friend, Janie, took of Maverick. I contacted her the day that we found out that he was diagnosed with Lymphoma and was so grateful that she made time to get together the following week to get some great shots of Maverick. Maverick looked so great and you would never know he was sick. We met at a wonderful place...one where he could do his three favorite things...swim, play ball, and run around with his little buddy. Maverick was such a handsome dog! It has been a very hard loss and has definitely been hard getting used to him being gone.

I did want to share one story of Maverick that I remembered the other day as I was talking to my brother-in-law. As I said in an earlier post, Graham was my personality dog and definitely my more 'independent' dog, but Maverick was my ROCK...he was definitely a MOMMA'S BOY. One day (back in 2003 or 2004) I got a call from my neighbor saying that Graham had gotten out of my yard and that her husband was running down the street chasing him. I was thankful that my neighbor was looking out for Graham but my first concern was, "OMG, where's Maverick???!!!!" I loved Graham but this had not been the first time that he had taken off from my house but if the gate was open I was so afraid that Maverick had gotten out too! And, he was not a street dog or adventurer like Graham was! That was the longest, worst drive home that afternoon as I worried about my baby being out and gone. As I pulled up in my driveway, I nearly jumped out of my jeep before it even stopped. My heart skipped a beat when I looked into the yard. The gate was standing wide open and there he was just sitting there as if he was saying, "I don't know where the heck he went! Crazy dog." My sweet, sweet boy. Never left my side. Just then my neighbor came up with Graham. Maverick looked at him like, "Dude, what were you thinking?! There's food here!"

Monday, September 6, 2010

Farewell to my 'baby boy' Maverick





Maverick Martin
March 2, 2002-September 5, 2010

I never looked forward to the day when I would have to post this news. The news that Maverick, my 4-legged best friend and 'baby boy', was gone. He was such a great gift to me and I was truly blessed to have him in my life. Graham was my 'personality dog' but Maverick was my ROCK. He had been with me through SO much and was always there when I needed him. He was the most amazing dog with the sweetest disposition, and I was honored to be his 'doggie mommy'.

He passed away peacefully at our home Sunday morning of Labor Day weekend. The Thursday night prior to this, we noticed that his right leg had swelled up to twice the normal size. I took him into the vet the next day and the vet confirmed that it was part of the cancer and that we were nearing the end with him. I took him home and Jeremy agreed it was best to spend as much time as we could with him over the weekend. We had planned on going camping on Saturday night but decided to take Maverick and Nate out for a ride and some ice cream. Maverick lapped up his ice cream and it was always a good sign when he had his appetite so we were staying hopeful. However, on Sunday morning, around 6 a.m., we awoke to Maverick struggling to get up off the floor. (Due to having hardwood flooring we pretty much heard every move he made during the night)! We got up and found that he had lost his bowels and that he could not get himself up. The night before we had made a carpet rug path from our room to the kitchen in hopes that it would give him more traction but unfortunately, the rugs were not even working for him. Jeremy ended up having to carry him outside. He didn't want anything to do with his medications, food, or water, and we knew right away that this was going to be a rough day.

Eventually Maverick made it clear that he wanted to go back inside as he got up and slowly headed toward the door. But, since we knew he would just struggle walking on the hardwood, Jeremy just picked him up and carried him down to the basement where it was carpeted. He stayed down there and I tried to lay down beside him but he kept turning his head as if to tell me that he wanted to be alone. Most humans want others to be by their side in the end, but dogs are different...they would rather be alone. So, when he got up on his front paws, we knew where he wanted to go. Jeremy helped him to the laundry room and we pretty much set up hospice there. We went down every 20 minutes or so to check on him and said our good-byes each time not knowing when would be the last. About 9:30ish I decided to take Nate downstairs to say good-bye to Maverick. Nate called Maverick his 'best friend' and they were, without a doubt, best buds. I really think that Maverick found strength with Nate around and had gotten better over the years because of Nater. Nate said good-bye and 'it will be okay Maverick' and we went upstairs. Jeremy went down shortly after and as soon as he came back up, I knew. Jeremy had been crying and he said that he was gone. My heart was broken.

As hard as it was to deal with, things happened so perfectly. I know that sounds strange to say but I feel that God's hands were all over this situation. Jeremy and I were really scared that we were going to have to make the decision to take him into the vet, and by him passing naturally we did not have to do that. We were both home with him, we didn't have to come home from work and find him, or wake up to find him gone. We were able to say our good-byes and get prepared as we knew we were at the end with him. With it being the holiday weekend we both had time off from work where we could grieve and take time to deal with the emotion of it all. And, coincidentally, Maverick passed just minutes after he saw Nate. It was as if he let go after seeing and saying good-bye to his little bud. When we all went down to see him for the last time, he was still warm and felt like Maverick. When we had found Graham he had been gone for many hours and it was a feeling that I will never forget.

We took Maverick down to my in-laws to bury him there and it was the most beautiful and perfect day out. We buried his beloved 'Chuck-It' and tennis ball with him and put him in his final resting place. As they were putting the dirt in the grave a blue butterfly flew right in front of my face and landed in the tree above Maverick. He sat there until they had all of the dirt back on and flew off. Maybe it seems silly, but to me, those are just signs that there is a God and that there is a heaven. Because without God, it is hard to have peace when you are dealing with death. Whether you are the one passing on or the one staying behind and grieving.

I am forever grateful for the time I had with Maverick, especially these past 2 years. It was almost 2 years ago that we received the first diagnosis...that he had a tumor and that it didn't look good. I thought my time was limited with him then but he held on strong and became a miracle and the past couple of years have been full of so many great memories. I feel blessed to have the most wonderful in-laws who were not only there for us during this difficult time, but took time to help us bury him and grieve with us. They opened up their yard to another pet who had become part of the family. My father-in-law said that they would never be able to move now as they have too many pets buried there and I joked and said that people were going to start paying for pet plots at their house! I am also thankful for a very kind vet, one that opened his door for us whenever we needed him, and who never sugar-coated what was happening. He took great care of my dogs and I was happy that he was Maverick's vet in the beginning and in the end. I am thankful to a dear friend of mine who shot some awesome pictures of Maverick just a month before he passed. He looked vibrate, happy, and you would never know that his health was compromised. I will always cherish those pictures and moments with him. And, I am eternally grateful for the most unselfish and loving husband. Jeremy always treated Maverick as his own and understood my attachment to him. He didn't complain when he had to carry him outside or when he got sick inside. He cried alongside with me and has been a great source of comfort to me through all of this. When he passed, Jeremy said, "He will always be a part of our family."

Pets are super special...they cannot be replaced. They each have their own personality and know exactly how to speak to you, even though they cannot use words. Maverick was my companion, the one that stuck by me through thick and thin. He was, no doubt, a 'momma's boy' and never left my side. He traveled with me and saw more of the world than some people are able to see in their lifetime. I could go on and on with funny and sincere stories of all the times I had with Maverick, but since it will take too long to write them here, I will forever hold them in my heart.

To my sweet baby boy...who I miss greatly and will never forget.